Hey Scott ..

Posted by: MattMac112

Hey Scott .. - 04/18/05 05:50 PM

<br><br>.. Maybe you shou've read this first ...<br><br><br><blockquote>Jungle <br>Wilbert Rideau 1976<br><br>In prison, every day ends the same way - with a key being turned in a door, locking me in for the night. Then we're counted, like things. And a little later the lights are cut off and we're sent to bed, like children.<br><br>As the night creeps slowly by, it gets quieter and quieter. Apprehension hangs heavily in the air, inmates dreading the minutes or hours of solitude before the peace of sleep. This is the hardest time of the day. This is when the walls seem to be closing in on you. During the day, there's work, intrigues, and a thousand little things that keep you moving, stirring, your mind occupied. But at night, there's nothing but the silence . . . and your thoughts.<br><br>I lay there in my bunk a long time, the cold, frightening silence closing in until a death-like stillness descends upon the entire dormitory. I'm not the only one awake. There are always others like myself on any given night, lying there watching the smoke from their cigarettes drift slowly up to the ceiling, trying to ignore or hide the voice crying within them . . . but if you listen closely, you can hear it, the voice of loneliness, the sounds of despair, of heartbreak-muffled sobs, tears, the half-stifled scream of a man slowly going insane as a result of the torment of emotional deprivation. Can even hear the sounds of lovemaking between some of the men, men trying desperately to hang on to the normality of life in an ocean of abnormality.<br><br>I watch the smoke of my cigarette, which so adequately symbolizes my life, as it drifts toward the ceiling, vanishing into nothingness. Questions assail me. About life, my purpose in it, my goals. Then the cold realities: frustration, pain, misery, guards, concrete walls and guns. A silent cry tears through my veins, stealing the strength from my soul, as the haunting notion that I am destined to live and die here assumes a realness that threatens to engulf my being. Yesterday is lost to me forever and tomorrow seems too far away to be seen as anything other than a false dream.<br><br>I try to cling to the dreams that have kept me going all these years, but it's harder now. I can feel them slipping away like a tired woman and a creeping sense of hopelessness, of impending death, threatening entry. I've been locked up too long. Few men here have been locked up as long as I and I feel old with the knowledge of this.<br><br>I'm tired. I long to quit this ultramasculine jungle, this barbaric dog-eat-dog world where men are deprived of every human need save hunger and thirst, this place where ruthlessness is the rule and mercy, the exception, this vacuum totally devoid of love, charity, brotherhood, beauty, and all of the other things that others take for granted but which are so important to us starved for them. I want to end this madness, to live again, but experience tells me that when hate and indifference control your destiny, to expect mercy or fairness is madness in itself.<br><br>It is becoming increasingly clear to me that being the much heralded "model" prisoner is not the key to freedom. Fourteen years of it hasn't gotten me anything. Now, I face the question of what to do. Where is the incentive in continuing the struggle when your efforts are ignored and your pleas fall upon deaf ears? Where is the sense in suffering for the sheer sake of suffering? This is a question which haunts each day of my existence, a question I've continuously refused to answer because I recognize the danger in it. I fear the answer.<br><br>Shoving the questions away, I lie there, my mood growing cold and lonely, for love, longing for freedom. I smoke cigarette after cigarette, waiting for sleep to come and blanket me with its coverlet of relief, but it eludes me tonight. I get to watch the sun fight its way over the horizon, warming this graveyard of the living dead, reaching into another day of nothing.</blockquote><br><br>link<br><br>****************<br>[color:red]Fat people are harder to kidnap</font color=red>
Posted by: snag

Re: Hey Scott .. - 04/18/05 06:12 PM

I still say death is the easy way out for that guy. I would rather he rot in prison and stew in his own pathetic thoughts.<br><br>
Posted by: Topper

Re: Hey Scott .. - 04/18/05 06:51 PM

For whatever reason, murderers don't think that way.<br>Look at all the multimillionaires that have tried to get away with murder only to end up in a tiny jail cell for the rest of their lives.<br>The best homes, food, clothes, cars, lifestyle for a jail cell? <br> <br><br>
Posted by: trey

Re: Hey Scott .. - 04/18/05 07:22 PM

Interesting read, thanks for sharing that. I've heard about that guy, he being here and all, but never read his stuff. My stepbrother's about to do something like forty-five years in either Hunt or Angola... maybe if he goes to Angola he'll be able to meet Mr. Rideau. Hopefully he'll learn something.<br><br>
Posted by: Pete

Re: Hey Scott .. - 04/18/05 07:25 PM

They really should start exploring the possibility of using the moon as a prison someday- this way, the death penalty doesn't need to be an issue and we free up all the land being used for penitentiaries...<br><br><br><br>[color:red]5.19.05 - The 'Jedi Slaughter' tour begins!</font color=red>
Posted by: snag

Re: Hey Scott .. - 04/18/05 09:40 PM

Not a bad idea if it can be done cheaply enough.<br><br>
Posted by: snag

Re: Hey Scott .. - 04/18/05 10:01 PM

<blockquote><font size=1>In reply to:</font><hr><p>Look at all the multimillionaires that have tried to get away with murder only to end up in a tiny jail cell for the rest of their lives.<p><hr></blockquote><p>I can only think of four (though I'm sure there are many). Dupont, who I believe was schizophrenic, Claus von Bulow, Simpson and Blake. The last three were all aquitted. Not sure what happened to Dupont.<br><br>I bet the number of millionaires that have been tried for murder is miniscule over all, and the number of them convicted even smaller.<br><br>
Posted by: Topper

Re: Hey Scott .. - 04/19/05 12:40 AM

Here are some millionaire murderers:<br>Rae Carruth<br>James Sullivan<br>Claudine Longet<br>Phil Spector<br>Leopold and Loeb<br>Menendez brothers<br>Michael Skakel<br>Dr. Sam Sheppard<br>Cheryl Crane<br>Christian Brando<br>Robert Durst<br>John DuPont (You mentioned him) <br>Christopher Wilder<br>Susan Cummings<br>Joyce McDillon<br>Patrizia Reggiani<br>Joe Hunt<br>Joe Pikul<br>Christopher Moseley<br>Tracey Tarlton<br>William Labrador<br>T. Cullen Davis<br>Dana Ewell<br>Frances Bradshaw Schreuder<br>Michael Peterson<br>Maurizio Gucci<br>Fred Milo<br>Ann Woodward<br>Marjorie Congdon<br>Generosa Rand<br>Robert Bierenbaum<br><br>
Posted by: snag

Re: Hey Scott .. - 04/19/05 01:15 AM

How many of those (and it's a relatively small list) were convicted?<br><br>Spector hasn't gone to trial yet, so he's still innocent.<br><br>Not sure the Menendez brothers could be considered millionaires in their own right.<br><br>Sam Shephard was freed after 10 years because the Supreme Court ruled he didn't receive a fair trial. He was found not guilty in the second trial.<br><br>Ann Woodward was exhonerated by a Grand Jury.<br><br>I haven't had the chance to look them all up but i suspect there are at least a few more in the list who have never been convicted, have been cleared for one reason or another, or were never millionaires.<br><br>In anycase, that's not a very long list when one consideres the numbers of murders and convictions every year in the U.S. alone.<br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br>
Posted by: Topper

Re: Hey Scott .. - 04/19/05 02:27 AM

<blockquote><font size=1>In reply to:</font><hr><p>How many of those (and it's a relatively small list) were convicted?<p><hr></blockquote><p>That's really not my point although most on my list were convicted.<br>Each and everyone of them jeopardized their chance at keeping their wealthy lifestyle by killing someone.<br>Obviously they never thought about maybe having to spend the rest of their lives in a tiny jail cell.<br>With all that money you would think they could figure out a better means to an end rather than murder.<br>I can't think like a murderer but I think I would look at the consequences of my acts.<br>Mansion or jail cell?<br>Caviar or soup?<br>Dom Perignon or water?<br>Beautiful women or Bubba?<br><br>You are right, the list is very short.<br>And I don't understand why anybody kills anybody let alone millionaires.<br><br><br><br>
Posted by: snag

Re: Hey Scott .. - 04/19/05 11:52 PM

Rae Carruth<br>James Sullivan<br>Claudine Longet - not guilty of murder<br>Phil Spector - untried, still innocent<br>Leopold and Loeb<br>Menendez brothers<br>Michael Skakel<br>Dr. Sam Sheppard - wrongly convited and exhonerated<br>Cheryl Crane - ruled justifiable homocide, never convicted of any crime, made a ward of the court because she was a juvenile <br>Christian Brando peaded guilty to involuntary manslaughter, did less than ten years<br>Robert Durst acquitted of murder<br>John DuPont (You mentioned him) found guilty but mentally ill<br>Christopher Wilder<br>Susan Cummings Pardoned<br>Joyce McDillon<br>Patrizia Reggiani<br>Joe Hunt<br>Joe Pikul<br>Christopher Moseley<br>Tracey Tarlton<br>William Labrador -wrongly convicted, exhonerated<br>T. Cullen Davis - found innocent of murder<br>Dana Ewell<br>Frances Bradshaw Schreuder<br>Michael Peterson<br>Maurizio Gucci<br>Fred Milo<br>Ann Woodward exhonerated, not guilty<br>Marjorie Congdon<br>Generosa Rand - never convicted<br>Robert Bierenbaum<br><br><br>This makes fully a third of those on your list not murderers, or pardoned.<br><br>
Posted by: Topper

Re: Hey Scott .. - 04/20/05 01:48 AM

Did you have a good time reading about each one?<br><br>
Posted by: OSXaddict

Re: Hey Scott .. - 04/20/05 02:19 AM

No kidding...that was a lot of work for just a thread about killers.<br><br>