Yo, girl. You're getting the best advice that can be had. I know how hard it can be to face the limitations of a system. But sometimes, it just is what it is.
I completely admire your spirit and smarts. Me at your age? Mmm, OK, I could pop the hood of a car, load a 22 and bait a hook. But ~ My compliments are totally intended. My advice? Knowing that it's unsolicited ~ Stop. Breathe. Listen.
You can't break every horse, and that's really OK. Promise.
LL
_________________________ I always deserve it. Really.